my illness is stil hanging arnd.
it suck.
its affecting my mood v greatly.


im feeling so irritated right now. so so so damn irritated.
not juz tat, and also a feeling of anger, disappointment, stress and almost every other negative emotion anybody can think of.


this is the worse time; the lousiest point im gg thru ever since so many mths ago.
i hate this feeling.


i feel as if i dun hv air to breathe.
why is this world so farking unfair?
why does "pain" and "sorrows" hv to exist in lives?



i just so wish to give up on everything.
ive lost my confidence.
im losing sight of my life.


hopes and dreams are slipping from me..
they are becoming an illusion in my mind..
im so deceived by my own thots and beliefs.



its not sucha beautiful picture afterall.

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